Let it Gooooooooooo!

What to say, what to say?

I've been making a list of all the items we need to / should / hope to sell before we move.  It's daunting to think that we're going to be losing a massive number of square feet when we move.  Downsizing just after our family as expanded is going to be a challenge.  I hope I don't feel trapped in the walls in a few months.  It's been so nice here with all these babies we've made... having a house large enough that we can play inside and not get too cabin fever-y.

I don't want to Craigslist with no husband around, but I really need to be taking pictures of all these things and writing descriptions so as soon as his feet get back in the state, I can post it all quickly.  I kinda just want to run and hide thinking about it.  Sooo much to do.  Sooo many decisions to make.

Our last move was about as easy peasy as they come.  One 18-month-old, moving within the state, new house bought before the packers showed up.  And even that was more stressful on the marriage than I expected it to be.  Doing it with more kids and out of state and within 2-3 weeks of Josh coming home from school?  Yeeeee.  I've got to learn how to just give up and let things be what they are. 

It's amazing that even after 9 years of the army teaching me to let go, I still want to plan all the things so badly!  I want everything to be easy and organized!  I want answers to all of the stupid questions before I show up to a city homeless.  But, ya know, that's how they expect me to roll... so I better just get used the idea that we're going to get there and open a box full of our current trash with crumbs in the rugs and sticky furniture.  There are definitely worse things in the world.

I keep watching the Israelites on the news (we still call them Israelites, yes?).  17,000 people fleeing for their lives, carrying their daily water on their shoulders, trying to keep their families safe from flying missiles?  Yeah.  I'll happily take packing all our sticky junk and cramming it into a smaller home and feeling like the walls are closing in.  I'll be so blessed just to have walls.  <3 p="">